I had scheduled the massage a few weeks earlier. I even got a confirmation the day before reminding me of the appointment. But when I arrived at the appointed time, my massage therapist wasn’t there. He wasn’t in when he should have been. He was at a training class in another city. But no one told me.
Oh. I was upset. I was very unhappy. To find out I wasn’t going to get the massage I desperately needed felt like an insult. A hard slap in the face on an early Saturday morning. I wanted to cry. I wanted to tell them I would never be back. Don’t ask if I want to reschedule. But I didn’t.
How many chances do you give someone when they mess up? How many times do you say. Oh. It’s ok. No problem. How many times do you let someone disappoint you before realizing they’re not good for you?
The thing is. I liked him. Oh. I liked his work. He has strength in his hands that I’ve never experienced. And with each massage, I would get a lesson in massage therapy and anatomy and physiology. Even if I didn’t ask for it. He’s passionate about his work. He tries to work out all the tight spots in the small amount of time he has with me. Oh. It’s never enough time. I have too many tight muscles. Too many issues.
He talks to me about the muscles he working on. Deltoid. Biceps. Quads. Minimus. Hamstrings. He talks about foot stretches. He mentions fascia and flexibility. Don’t look down so much. He says. He gives advice on how to care for my body.
So I’ve given him a second chance. A chance to prove himself. The thing is. I don’t know if the scheduling problem was his fault or someone else’s. So why wouldn’t I give him a second chance?
I rescheduled with him. He was there at the appointed time. He didn’t say a word about the jumbled schedule. But toward the end of my massage, he said the words I wanted to hear. Do you need to be anywhere? Because I can keep working on you. Twenty-five minutes later, he finished the massage.
Disappointment a couple weeks earlier turned into an extra long massage. His generosity won me back. His work is great. His technique is effective. I wouldn’t have known that if I hadn’t given him another chance to prove himself. He is worth it.
I have loved you with an everlasting love. I have drawn you with unfailing kindness. Jeremiah 31:3
Sometimes I don’t understand how God works in my life. I don’t know why He allows bad things to happen. I don’t know why He lets me wait on things that seem to be good. I don’t know why He doesn’t answer some prayers.
I do know that God hears my every prayer. He knows my pain. He knows my hurts and longings. Oh. He doesn’t take them away just because I ask. But he does stand with me through the ups and downs of life.
How many times does God forgive me when I sin? He always forgives me. Never once has he turned his back on me. Each time I stumble in my desire to be godly, God forgives me when I ask. He brings me back into his arms of love. Oh. There are times he disciplines me. There are times of pruning the dead branches when there is no growth.
He talks to me about acceptance. Kindness. Generosity. Don’t be so negative. Help others. He reminds me that I’m not perfect. I’m forgiven. He asks for my trust.
He teaches me lessons about life and love and contentment. Even when I don’t ask. He shows me everlasting love even when I don’t deserve it. He blesses me when I least expect it. He never gives up on me. He’s always available when I need him. He always out gives and out loves me.
But then again. I don’t understand why God would choose to bless me with a great life. I’m thankful and I’m loved. I’m chosen and I’m forgiven.