I started a new job. There are weeks and weeks of training. My head is full of information and knowledge. I wonder how I will ever remember everything once I start doing the work. It is a scary thought. What if I fail? What if I can’t do the job after all the training that was put into me? What if I can’t cut it?
There are so many instructions. So many steps. So many complicated steps. To everything. Nothing is simple. Nothing is quick. Copy this. Encrypt that. Make notes of this. Learn three new systems. Track your time. There is so much to learn. Oh. The work isn’t really difficult. It’s just a very manual process that needs to be automated.
I shared my concerns with a friend. I asked her to pray. She hears from God. His message was loud and clear.
It will settle. You are well equipped. He assists you and never leaves your side. Deep enjoyment is forthcoming.
That was the promise. How could I doubt? I realize I don’t doubt God. I doubt myself. But in doubting myself, am I doubting God? So many times I have gone back to read that promise. To steady my nerves. To gain confidence. To face the fear. I pray for God’s mercies each day as I walk into work. I know God is with me. With each task I struggle with or accomplish, God is there. He has not left my side.
What if the Lord had not been on our side? Psalm 124:1
I have to remember my time of unemployment. When I prayed for a job. When I prayed that God would provide the right job for me. I felt such peace about this one. This place. I knew it was where I should be. I am so thankful to be there. The company is great. The people are great. Now I need to feel great about it.
The blessings of God are not trouble free. The answers to prayer are part of our path to eternity. The work of God in our lives is a work in progress. The ups and downs of daily life are blessings and obstacles that put us on a path to God. Success is as much a curse as it is a blessing. Success brings challenges that failure never thought of.
I know God can run my life much better than I can. His plans are perfect. I need to trust Him more than I trust myself. Because right now. Right now I wonder if I can do the job that he has provided. I need God’s strength and help right now just as much as I needed His provision when I was looking for a job. The truth is. I always need God’s help. There’s nothing I can do on my own that is done better without God’s help.
I need to keep my focus on my God. And His strength. My work has just begun there. His work continues in my life. As long as I have breath. For everything I need, He will provide.
I started a new job today. Oh. It felt good. It felt frightening. It felt God-given. After months of unemployment, it felt good to be called an employee. Again. God is good. All the time. All the time. God is good.
I want to remember this day. I want to remember the joy I felt as I walked through the door for the first time as an employee. I want to remember the expectation of good days to come. Of successes. Of new friendships. Of finding my purpose for being there.
When I’m down in the weeds of work. Researching. Writing. Discussing. Preparing reports. Fighting to make the world a better place. I want to remember the joy of this new beginning. I want to be thankful for the opportunity to struggle with meeting a deadline. I want to appreciate the hard fought battle of gathering information and making things right. I want to feel joyful that God has provided an opportunity for me to serve Him in a new place. A new setting. A new beginning.
Oh. There will be struggles. There will be deadlines. There will be too much work and too little time. There will be differences of opinion. There will be collaboration. There will be a plethora of learning. There will be hard fought battles.
Work willingly at whatever you do, as though you were working for the Lord rather than for people. Colossians 3:23
I want the challenge. I accepted the offer. Now I must be willing to accept everything that comes along with that offer. The good. The bad. The ugly. I hope and pray there isn’t much ugly. But one never knows. Personalities clash. Timelines are crunched. Budgets grow tight. Tempers flare. But through it all, I want to remember. I want to remember the act of walking through the door on this first day. I want to remember the art of appreciation when I am fed up with the system. When all I can see is red tape and slowness of progress. I want to appreciate being employed. For being employed even in a bad job is better than not being employed. That’s easy to say. It’s not always easy to live through bad employment. It’s even worse living through unemployment. But both are survivable. I know. I’ve lived through both. That’s why I want to remember this day. And appreciate it for all it’s worth.
I was welcomed by new coworkers. New names. New faces. New opportunities. New office. New surroundings. New routines. I welcome the discomfort of being new. Of not knowing the system. Of having to learn the ropes. Of being the newbie. Because it will become familiar.
New becomes familiar. Familiar becomes routine. Routine become boredom. Boredom becomes complacency. Complacency becomes death for 40 hours a week. That is what I don’t want.
So. For this new beginning, I say thank you to God. Thank you for providing me with a new job. Thank you for listening to my heartfelt prayers. Thank you for all the interviews you sent my way. Thank you for giving me the ability to earn a living. Thank you, God.