I started a new job. There are weeks and weeks of training. My head is full of information and knowledge. I wonder how I will ever remember everything once I start doing the work. It is a scary thought. What if I fail? What if I can’t do the job after all the training that was put into me? What if I can’t cut it?
There are so many instructions. So many steps. So many complicated steps. To everything. Nothing is simple. Nothing is quick. Copy this. Encrypt that. Make notes of this. Learn three new systems. Track your time. There is so much to learn. Oh. The work isn’t really difficult. It’s just a very manual process that needs to be automated.
I shared my concerns with a friend. I asked her to pray. She hears from God. His message was loud and clear.
It will settle. You are well equipped. He assists you and never leaves your side. Deep enjoyment is forthcoming.
That was the promise. How could I doubt? I realize I don’t doubt God. I doubt myself. But in doubting myself, am I doubting God? So many times I have gone back to read that promise. To steady my nerves. To gain confidence. To face the fear. I pray for God’s mercies each day as I walk into work. I know God is with me. With each task I struggle with or accomplish, God is there. He has not left my side.
What if the Lord had not been on our side? Psalm 124:1
I have to remember my time of unemployment. When I prayed for a job. When I prayed that God would provide the right job for me. I felt such peace about this one. This place. I knew it was where I should be. I am so thankful to be there. The company is great. The people are great. Now I need to feel great about it.
The blessings of God are not trouble free. The answers to prayer are part of our path to eternity. The work of God in our lives is a work in progress. The ups and downs of daily life are blessings and obstacles that put us on a path to God. Success is as much a curse as it is a blessing. Success brings challenges that failure never thought of.
I know God can run my life much better than I can. His plans are perfect. I need to trust Him more than I trust myself. Because right now. Right now I wonder if I can do the job that he has provided. I need God’s strength and help right now just as much as I needed His provision when I was looking for a job. The truth is. I always need God’s help. There’s nothing I can do on my own that is done better without God’s help.
I need to keep my focus on my God. And His strength. My work has just begun there. His work continues in my life. As long as I have breath. For everything I need, He will provide.